game

my last vision just before the crash was yellow. not the kinds which may be associated with what chris martin wrote for gwyneth paltrow. it was the colour of the bus which appeared from nowhere and was found to be horizontally placed in front of my car.
my last thought was,"this is it?!". just before the bang, time froze. and i rued at how, just like that its all going to end.
soon after the crash thankfully i did'nt lose any balance in my head. i almost immediately made sure that everyone in the car was unhurt and fine and after that everything seemed to go by in a jiffy. the hospitals and the ambulance and the x-rays and the m.r.i and doctors and concerned relatives. while all this went happening around me, i was shocked to be alive after it all and on top of it, unscratched. well more or less. and whatever little injuries that were sustained were actually a bare minimum there could have been considering it was a head-on collison, the kinds shown in movies and my car (i was in absolute love with it and i liked to believe that it martyred itself for us) has been declared as a "total loss".

now i understand the meaning of 'gratitude' in a whole different perspective! to be alive after the whole incident has been,well, nothing short of what they say, a 'miracle'. in between the full throttle pressing of the brakes and the head on collisson and the loud bang andrealising that my family was safe and that the bus was not plyed by any passengerand the driver was safe as he was seen fleeing, a whole lifetime passed in a matter of seconds. the mere fact that now everyday since then i get jostled up a few times everytime i sleep from vision of the whole crash seems to be the smallest price of what i got in the bargain. LIFE!

i have had accidents in the past. a cycle collison which left me with ugly teeth for life. a bike fall that has made a few permanent scars on the arm.but this one stands out. its the one that will have the strongest impact on the rest of my life. it has made me realise that no one, absolutely no one is immune to anything.the GAME is bigger than we can imagine and it can seriously humble anyone.absolutely anyone.

we imagine that certain things would never happen to us. we would never be hit by lightning.never would have an accident.never would stray.never would get into trouble.and then it may just happen.and we thinking.how?how it could happen?how it could happen to ME? things that happen in the news shall never happen to is. we will never be caught in a firenever in a terrorist attck. never in a plane crash. never caught cheating. well no one has an immunity from anything. life may have the plans which we can never fathom in our wildest of imaginations. within moments we may be thrown from the pinnacle to the dust. from being in control, to out of the box. from the unchallenged king to the stabbed ceaser by a friend!

i was lucky to have survived what i went through. but would i be the next time.what to do then?
the real truth is that the seemingly inocuous and for some people an irritaing seat belt proved to be the saviour. it works.it saves. take it from me. the impact can only be imagined from th efact that the bus i collided in, toppled over.(yes it did. i have toppled a bus over. aint that cool?!) and the seat belt wrapped us to the seat and prevented our throwing to the windscreen and for me, the steering. albeit that.curtains would have been surely down.end of it. so the trick is to be prepared as much as it is in our hands. and even then there is no guarantuee. people have survived grave and impossible situations and people have died by tripping on the stairs of the comfort of their homes.

now as Ross said in one of the episodes of "Friends', when a car backfired and he thought he was shot at, even i have 'a new found respect for life'. sounds like a bloody cliche but i cant help feeling it. i imagine the things i would have missed out on doing which i have planned to before i kick the bucket. i wouldn't have ever seen sachin in real life. i would have never known the kind of love they show in movies which is so much that it hurts. i wouldnt have had anyone fall in love with me. i would have gone without hitting the perfect cover drive. there would have no visit to the pyramids.a few sorrys had to be told. a lot more thank yous.my family has yet to have an occasion to be proud of me. hadn't made anyone laugh so much that a tear come out of their eye. hadnt yet done snow camping. hadnt taken a vacation alone to the beach. i would have been dead without ever witnessing a sunrise. hadn't had a chance to see if any of my children would have had my kind of weird ears. the movies i would miss which are yet to be made and would take my breath away. to see if i can fall in love with myself any more than i already have!

the game is fun. the game is beautiful. the game has ups and downs.and the game can be cruel. you can never take it for granted. it has an ego and it can get after you and humble you in ways unimaginable. the only thing in our hand is to enjoy every bit of it.look for more aspects of it and not keep things for tomorrow. make things happen rather than wait for things to happen.be grateful for everything that is at offer and have unconditional respect for people,family,friends,life. never congratulate yourself too much on a win. never be bereaved too much at a loss. accept everthing that happens with simplicity.have faith and carry on. the game is worth palying every second of it. play on baby! there aint much else to do anyways.