rajarsh

as we go on living, we are constantly discovering ourselves. knowingly or otherwise, everything we do seems to reveal more and more of us to ourselves. and in this process whoever we come along, serves as a tool in the self disocvery. how we get along with people and in different scenarios is the test that is instrumental in our definition of ourselves. in this sense every relationship, every encounter howsoever brief or elaborate is a reflection of our own selves. for example if we make someone laugh, we feel great ourselves. it gives immense satisfaction. we feel that we achieved something by doing something to the other person. now if we are sorry about somnething else then it means that we are dissapointed in our own selves. also if others are dissapointed in us then we feel terrible for causing that to them. and we need to correct it. so everything that we do is eventually affecting us only. because the others are just a medium through which we test these feelings. we essentially

for me solitude differs from lonliness in as much as there seems to be a certain romance involved with solitude. i cant say how it differs in terms of its definition. havent even checked the dictionary to see their respective meanings. however how i percieve it is being summarised in the following attempt to where i see it exist. it is in the fluttering of a flag it is the sound of the wind in the sand it is in the glory of a past success it is an attempt to overcome a loss it is a crucified GOD on the cross it is in the crashing of a wave into the cliff it is in the coldness of a lover's tiff it is the depth of a still river it is the lightning at night it is in the sparlkle of the sun's bright it is the vaccum of the sky it is in the introspection of a hard try it is colour of the fire it is in the weight of desire it is the courage of a widow it is the butterfly in the meadow it is the unpublished words of an author it is the symphony of flowing water it is in the dreams of